Random Talk #2

Hi, guys, how's life?
    After a long time, I came back here to share my current life and imagination.
So, these days, I quite busy with college things, it makes sense since I am at the end of college life, which means if I can finish it in normal way, next year, I will graduate from university. Anyway, there are so many wish list that I keep in my notes. I don't think that I have to graduate as soon as possible, but I prefer to lead my self in finding a lot of things that can be useful in my future rather than just trying to be the youngest university graduate in my faculty or things like that. I realized that I am currently at my quarter-life crisis. Many things aren't going well and I find myself stopped. Just need healing and refreshing all day. But, after had a deep conversation with my sisters and parents, this kind of feeling is natural since we are twenties. 
    Seeing my parents getting older everyday brings me to guilt. Can I make them happy in their old age? Can I just relieve their worries?. That kind of feeling lead me to finish my education as soon as possible and then working in my dream place, make money, dressed by myself, and also build a happy life for both me and my family. Sometimes I wanna take time to rest, but in other side, there is no time for me to just stay and lying all day. My time is getting shorter every second. I even don't know when I have to stop. Nothing gonna change if I don't start to move. Nothing gonna end with happy ending if I don't start to make it. I must going on because life is still going on even we are on the rest. Rini, take your time to do all things make you have value. Remember all things you have done in your youth. It doesn't happen without a reason, right?. Come on, let's go. 
Rini Pratiwi (20)

Note: I'm currently try to write all in English, pls correct me if you find wrong grammar or sentences. Thx